Sense of loss is the worst feeling. And sense of achievement is so gratifying. Loss always teaches you and success spoils. I have yet to succeed in full bloom and struggling hard to overcome whatever discontent left in life. This struggle is my life force and in a way method to keep myself impervious to attachments.
Driven by this pain of disturbance - wanna give my best to my family, friends and loved ones and also beyond them to those who are not part of my life. Disturbance is essential to keep that seething pain - force oneself to serve the society beyond self.
I want to keep myself eternally disturbed and eternally discontent.